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i took today off as my sanity day. didnt go to work, didnt sleep last night until 5am. my tummy hurt and i had a headache, but thats not what kept me up. beth, damon and i stayed up just talking about life, sex, umbrellas. then i slept until 2. havent done that in a loooong long time. missed a lunch for secretaries day, too. oh well - my sanity is more important.

with b being sick, his everquest addiction is much much more apparent than it ever has been before. i did a lot of researching this evening on gaming addictions and even joined a group. doubt ill be all that active in it, but oh well.

ive been feeling pretty low since i awoke. low energy, dont want to shower or get dressed. i am torn between my feelings of 'im so disinteresting that he would rather play that blasted game" to feelings of discontinuing our internet service, breaking his cds, and uninstalling the program.

kind of like throwing a cocaine addicst powder down the toilet.