beauty for ashes
tuesday night after bible study, the study group - sans b - went on a field trip to alaskaland. found a nice gondola with a tiny grill and proceeded to burn all of the paperwork b had collected for everquest.
all of his quests, maps, race/class specifications, spells, etc went up in flames.
He has sent Me to bind up the broken-hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound; ...to comfort all who mourn; to give to them beauty for ashes... - Isaiah 61:1,2,3
the question arose: what beauty do i hope will come from these ashes? my answers:
- renewed relationship with my husband
- removing temptation and the possibility of his returning to the game
- convincing myself of the finality and seriousness of his decision
- ability to move forward
- ability to see the front of his face insetead of the back of his head
- receiving the support i need
- removing the ability for him to look through all the papers and regret his decision
during the quasi-ceremony, we sang, prayed, and even did some dancing to avoid the jumping glowing piece of paper (it was raining and terribly windy). my brother helped my place crumpled papers into the flames, his wife held the stick for probling the flames and keeping the ashes in the grill pit as much as possible, and beth ripped the file folders into pieces - they dont burn too well.
when we destroyed the glossy users manual that came with the cd, it produced the most awful stench. but it had to be done. it felt great seeing that scantilly-clad, boobs-bursting-out-of-top blonde on the cover of that book melting and charring.
and we found that cds dont break very easily. thats right - we broke the cds too. beth was actually able to bend one in half with out it breaking. i tried the same stunt and had it shatter in my hand.
actually set up an initial meeting with a counselor. turns out we have mutual friends, so the counseling might not work out. but i have made the first step. i will do anything to get us back on track. no marriage is supposed to be this way.
beauty for ashes.
2002
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wow... i had no idea that you were going through such hardships. my prayers and thoughts are with you, and i hope it all works out... believe it or not i can sort of relate right now, so just know i'm thinking of ya.
thanks, ryan...
i know what you mean about that blonde chick. she makes me want to beat her up. luckily the chicks in the actual game don't look nearly that good. they're all square and their faces look like men with downs syndrome or something.
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