moe
moe called last night around 11 - it was a miracle i was still up. she was on the playground with a group of friends calling on her cell phone.
she sounded quite energetic, despite the small amount of sleep shes been getting. and she told me all about how much 'fun' shes having this summer. you know - things like vandalism-with-spray-paint and stealing road signs. fun 'fun stuff'.
she didnt sound very interested in much of what i had to say, and a few times completely interrupted to tell me something, then didnt apologize or say, 'you were saying..?'
im not sure if she was on something or not, but i wouldnt be surprised. it was good to hear from her, but i think i might have rathered being deluded and thinking she was turning her life around for the better - or at least not getting worse.
shes applied for an apartment in those low-income buildings - whatever theyre called. the ghettos? close enough. she hasnt heard back from the lady yet though.
when she hung up, i was mad that she had called and basically dissed me. i was mad that she didnt want to talk with me, just at me. i was mad that shes been running around so blatantly breaking the law. and i was completely devastated that i cant do anything to help.
thats the worst thing - just knowing that whatever i could possible do wont help.
