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just a car

it was the best car i ever owned.
the first car we ever paid more than $2000 for.
the first car we bought from a dealer.
our only vehicle that had nothing mechanically wrong with it.
our only car with a ufo in the trunk

i said my last goodbye today as i stripped it of every evidence i ever drove it. i toted boxes of stuff from its interior to the isuzu. toothbrushes, feminine hygene products, gum, first aid kit, jumper cables. it almost felt like a romantic breakup.

i worked through all of my emotional issues monday night with tears - that was before its totality was a reality and no longer a 'what if...?'

with my personal effects in the black rodeo, the red escort looked cold and naked. and i had no emotional response besides holy-crap-its-too-cold-outside-for-my-ears. i drove away feeling indifferent.

it is and was just a car.