christmas decorations
January 8, 2004
last year we didnt put up any christmas decorations. i tried my hardest to not celebrate christmas, because doing so would acknowledge and accept that life goes on without my sister.
this year i was emotionally able to set up the tree and other assorted ornamentation. i could go shopping and hum along with the carols. i could wrap and get excited about giving gifts.
last night i took the tree and all christmas-y decorations down. while we didnt move stuff around to make room for the tree, there is now a huge, gaping hole where it once stood. and again i was reminded of the huge, gaping hole in my life where melissa once stood. it may not be as painful as it once was, but it still exists. and i still really miss her.
2 Comments
wow. you actually made that snowman look cute. quite a feat.
it looks to me like lacey is up to no good. of course, even when she's mischievous she still looks cute.
Lacey looks soooo cute!
I'm sorry for your hurt. As you know, we didn't do deco this year though Damon thought about it. I think I need to make myself decorate next year to get out of this no-deco slump.