Weepy
Am feeling a bit weepy this morning. No, this week.
Maybe it has to do with my Womanly Cycle of All Things Holy And Good. Maybe it has to do with some new medication (!) (I have medication! That a doctor is making me take regularly! This has never happened to me before!). Maybe it has to do with my having to wake before 7am so I can bum a ride to work while my car is getting prettified. Maybe it's the time of year. How convenient that I could blame it on the decreasing amount of light each day and vegetation dying.
But I do know that my pastor mentioned death on Sunday and I almost lost control of my tears. And every single character that I grew to love in my book died last night: the mother, the maid, the husband, the sister.
And I cannot stop thinking how each and every person on this earth with suffer the death of a loved one. We will each look upon the body of someone we once held close, someone who shared our laughter and tears, and instinctively know that whatever semblance of a person, a personality, is no longer present.
Maybe I'm feeling the need to grieve in every human's stead. To grieve for all those who will be forced to grieve. To grieve for the unfairness of our world.
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I'm having the emotional issues too.. The "happy pill" aren't cutting it anymore. I also blame the weather. Basically I pawning off all the blame on everyone else, I know or will ever know.
It's that time of the year when everything dies and it's very hard to get through this season. I love you!
I hate living in a world with the realization of inevitable loss. Just a few years ago I didn't live in that world. Grieve, but don't grieve for the whole world. They can take care of their own damned selves.
You don't need to grieve for everything. Be happy for what you have. I know it's hard sometimes, but life includes death, and sadness, but many good things aswell.
hugs to you...know the feeling...wish there was a magic pill that could take it away...I personally believe it is another stage of life...when your mind finally realizes that you dont have forever here on this planet...dont let it suck you in...the glass is NOT half empty...it is half full...(hopefully of something really yummy that will temporarily make you smile)
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