Before I Leave Canada
I'm drafting this in the airport on my way out of Vancouver and back to Alaska (via Seattle). I spent a lovely day at the Granville Island Market and then did a spot of shopping. I eyed $250 boots (thats only like $248 US!) but pulled myself away before trying them on and falling in love.
Then I had lunch at a crêperie all alone and felt quite lonely and ready to go home. Traveling alone is very quiet although surrounded by a lot of background noise.
There were a lot of people in the restaurant all talking and laughing and making a lot of noise, just not directly with me. The streets and shops were full of people chatting and shouting and laughing and bustling, just not directly with me.
It's a strange feeling to be surrounded by so many people but being all alone. It made me remember a video: How To Be Alone.
And that's hard for me, being alone. Every year I get more practice; I would have never considered going to Vancouver alone for my brother's wedding had I not already been going to Juneau alone for work. Maybe in 5 years time I will find myself at a movie theatre all alone.
I'm looking forward to being home with my family and my dogs and my mattress, where I won't be alone.